Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Beginnings and Endings

We had the most wonderful ending this past Monday. Brian finished his last class for his bachelor's degree!!! I'm so proud of him. It's weird now because I actually have Brian in the evening. For the last four years he's been doing schoolwork nearly every day/night. Since he started school only a year after we were married, this is going to take some getting used to. Also, I realize now that we haven't had as much time to get to know each other (I don't mean that as a double entendre either!). We haven't been strangers, but we just haven't had TIME together. We've always had to consider his school schedule and deadlines. Now we don't. Hmm. Wonder what will happen?

In other news, my new work schedule begins next week. For the first time in a year - I DON'T HAVE TO WORK ON SATURDAYS! Again, there is now time for Brian and me. And our kids! I get to see them, too! And I can go to the temple again! Hurray!

I've told Brian that he gets to help me take pictures for my tutorial. It's hard to get him to remember my projects because he's pretty into his own projects and they seem to encroach on my time, too. I'll just have to get bolder about reminding him that I need his help, too. Wish me luck.

My garden is growing well. Last night I harvested my first ear of corn. It is tiny! I've been picking zucchinis for a few days now and have hit on the idea of making zucchini chips out of them to eat with my salsa instead of tortilla chips. I made my first batch yesterday in my new dehydrator and they work GREAT! They are definitely a flavor to get used to tasting, but they'll cut down on my caloric intake and my food bill.

Speaking of food bill, I've been doing a project for a while now regarding once-a-month cooking. I've written down all the meals my family eats on a regular basis along with their shopping lists and all that. It turns out I've been spending about twice as much on food as I should have. Now I am trying to make meals in advance and put them in the freezer. On Monday, I made up six pizzas, wrapped them in plastic and put them in seal-a-meal bags. I am going to be making up a chart for the front of the freezer with a list of all the meals for the month on it that we can cross out what we've had and I can shop more sanely. I'm embarrassed that I've misspent so badly.

Oh, forgot to mention that I've read two more books on my list for this year: Tom Sawyer and Misty of Chincoteague. Luckily I enjoyed both more than I thought I would. I'm dreading reading Old Yeller. Ugh. Next on the list is Howl's Moving Castle.

So: endings (school), beginnings (food sanity and new library schedule).

Much is good.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Small Successes

As I have mentioned before, I am a librarian. Ours is a poor system with little public support other than cries of outrage when library services get cut. These cuts have meant that fewer of us are doing more work. I say more work because people have been coming out of the woodwork to use the library. We are bustling ALL THE TIME. Most of the full-timers work at multiple locations to get in our 40 hours. Until the 3rd of July, I work at two locations. After the 3rd, I will work at three.

Today I was working at the main library downtown. After less than an hour of our doors opening, I'd already handled two certifiably crazy people. By 11am, I was tired of presenting a compassionate and understanding face to the public. I wanted them to all go away. Unfortunately, that blah-ness lasted all day.

And then Brian called me at work just before closing and asked if I wanted to go out to dinner. The kids had been stolen for the night by their aunt and we had free time! We decided that we wanted to go somewhere new and each of us said we'd look into possibilities.

We decided on Frugatti's - an Italian place. It was really packed (and noisy - there was live accordian music playing). I wanted to try something new so I chose lamb medallions and garlic mashed potatoes. I hadn't had lamb since I lived in London during college and didn't remember how it tasted.

While we were waiting for our food, I confessed to Brian about the trouble I was having with my folding books tutorial. I could see the wheels turning in his brain and was a bit despairing. My husband, very intelligent, sometimes tries to solve problems he doesn't fully understand. And then he gets frustrated when I tell him thanks, but no thanks. I didn't want to ruin dinner! Anyway, after I told him what I was trying to do, he asked me a few questions about the focus of my tutorial. And as he asked me questions, I finally saw what I was trying to do clearly! Emboldened with this small success, I told him my other frustration - how to explain the patterns. He listened as I explained what I needed to show and some ideas I had on how to do that. As I explained, he made small comments and I found my problem being solved. I became more and more excited, seeing how THIS COULD WORK. I probably overwhelmed Brian with my giddiness, but he's getting used to it after nearly five years.

I wasn't that hungry anymore because I was so excited about the tutorial not being my Sword of Damocles anymore. (That's probably not an apt metaphor, but I've felt it hanging over me for so long that I'm going to use it anyway. So there.) My lamb medallions came. The garlic mashed potatoes were made with butter and roasted garlic and I thought I'd died and gone to Heaven. The lamb tasted like meat. Brown meat. Tender brown meat. I tried the mint jelly that came with it, but it was just too weird. It looked like green Jello. I kept expecting it to taste like lime candy. Yuck. I even ate the asparagus with herbed mayonnaise. It was a very grownup experience, eating vegetables without being forced to do so. And they tasted yummy.

We got to-go containers for our leftovers and I kept babbling a mile a minute to Brian when I saw a familiar face walk by. Someone I knew from work was there with his wife. I've always admired this person and was proud that he'd seen me there, too. I wanted him to notice that I'm cool, too! It's sad that I'm 42 and still feel as insecure about myself as I did when I was in high school.

We came home and I laid down on the bed to read my Sookie Stackhouse book (the sixth one?). Brian fell asleep next to me. It's been a good day. (And I only feel a little bit guilty for eating a baby baa-baa)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Check This Out

Hello friends, I'm an avid follower of certain blogs, one of which is Lil Fish Studios. (That's a picture of her stuff above) Several blogs have done interviews with her (not me - I'm not an interviewer or an interviewee - I fly under the radar!) and there is a neat one of her today on The Rikrak Studio. Go check it out! And enter the giveaway. I'm trying to win, too, because I love Lisa's stuff. *slobber*

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

The Need for Change

I need to do something new with my life. I want to throw all of my stuff out and start over, fresh, new, clean!

I want to change my personality, too. I think I will speak with a French accent. (Say it with me "Fronch Ok-SONT.")


I want all the projects lingering in my closets and on my table (and in the million boxes in the garage) to be finished so I can begin something new...

And while I'm at it, I want a pony.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Hello My Name is Heather

When it has been a while between posts, I sometimes feel that I have to re-introduce myself.

Hi, my name is Heather and this is my blog.

It's been quite a week. Last Friday afternoon, my husband called me at work to tell me he feared he was being laid off at the end of the day. It turned out to simply be a disciplinary thing and he was suspended for three days. This is the third time this has happened to him. There is a person at the work who is behind this problem and I'm feeling very uncharitable and hoping this person gets laid off himself. He has caused me and my family a lot of grief.

The family schedule this week has made it so that I've been gone every evening since last Monday. When I'm out that often, I get really cranky. And that's being kind to myself. I am a bad lady. Mean. I was looking forward to this weekend with two days off to myself (with Kiff, of course). Brian didn't tell me he had the kids for extra time and was taking the day off to be with them. There went my alone time. It's hard for me to comprehend that this man can't understand that his being around is a LOT OF WORK FOR ME. And his kids are quadruple work.

I ended up coming home from church early with a headache. I laid down and fell into that not-asleep, but paralyzed/dreaming state that is almost as good as a nap until Kenneth burst into my room and climbed into the bed and onto my head an hour later (when church was really over). Why does he ALWAYS sit or lay or something on my head?

I'm going to try to do something art-related tomorrow, even with a house full of people. Wish me luck.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Keeping Heart

Trying to keep my chin up during a bit of a trial. My car died on the road coming home last Friday. On Monday, we found out that the engine was beyond repair. That was after we'd spent $200 getting it towed (twice) and looked at. Now I have to figure out how to get to work during the week without borrowing my in-laws' cars all the time.

Keep your fingers crossed that my upper lip doesn't get unstiffened...

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Work in Progress on the Window

I really like designing new patterns for folded books. It's surprising to me how one set of marks can have so many different possibilities. Nearly all the books you see (except for the one closest) have the same set of marks. The order in which you fold them or the place where you stop or start folding makes the pattern. I can make a half circle type of pattern that I want to see if I can make look like scales within a fish shape. Or maybe it looks enough like a crescent moon that I can pair it with stars in an alternating pattern.

And my son likes to wear baskets on his head. For no good reason. And he keeps it there all the while he's doing something else...

My husband's genes. I'm sure of it.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Down the Rabbit Hole

I am reading Julie & Julia right now and am having a guilty pleasure. It's amazing, this gift of writing that some people have. I don't know that I would like the author as a friend, but her way of writing is just so... so SOMETHING! I must continue reading to the end.

There is a quote I just read that has stopped me in my tracks:

"It just makes you happy, thinking about the possibilities out there."

[the author's husband] meant that sometimes you get a glimpse into a life that you never thought of before. There are hidden trap doors all over the place, and suddenly you see one, and the next thing you know you're flogging grateful businessmen or chopping lobsters in half, and the world's just so much bigger than you thought it was.

So that night I made my New Year's resolution... If I was going...down this rabbit hole, I was going to enjoy it, by Go* -- exhaustion, crustacean murder, and all. Because not everybody gets a rabbit hole. I was one lucky bastard, when you came down to it.

I am lucky, too, and need to dive headfirst into my own rabbit hole. Bye now!